Feels Good

Hello Everyone, 

It feels GREAT to be back up and writing. I've been consumed with teaching and still waiting for the process of my book publishing but it's all coming along with hard work. I am beyond excited for this book to hit the public and the lives that it will touch. There are so many families that have gone through losses and so many women who need that extra encouragement through any of their situations whether it be a loss, problems with conceiving, finding out conception is impossible (by man) or just dealing with family or friends in any of those scenarios.

I refuse to just sit silent about life's trials, I choose to use it as a testimony to what God can do and just simply to show who He is. I can't even begin to take credit for where I am at emotionally or any other way in my life. Mentally I should be gone, suicide at some point was a logical option in my brain but the Holy Spirit, who stays true to his word, was there for me through it all. I thank God that this day, November 25, 2011, I am where I am. As we know the verse Jeremiah 29:11, He knows the plans he has for me, so it's up to me to say, "Okay God, you've got me!."

If you know any woman in your life who is having problems conceiving, any women who found out it'll take nothing less of a miracle to conceive, or any family who has suffered a loss of a child and does not quite know what to do with those emotions, I would love to talk with them. So feel free to have them email me at amothersheartrhone@gmail.com or anyway that is convenient for them even if it is with a phone call or a written letter. My life is about being a testimony to who God is and to spread the gospel of Christ, and our hope in Christ Jesus.

I pray you stay encouraged and know that God's got you! Just BELIEVE!

TeAndra Rhone 

The Day

Below will just be a short excerpt from my book that will be out this summer titled, 'A Mothers Heart: The Heart of the Matter.' It will be exactly 4 years, May 20th, from when we lost our son, our first born. The journey started that day in the cloudy skies of Salt Lake City, Utah and to this day the mending continues.

Chapter 1: The Day

..."The room was bright and the surgery lights were lit. There were several nurses in the room awaiting the arrival of a premature baby. I just wanted to hear a whimper, something…anything, but I got nothing. My husband looked at me and all I saw were the tears streaming down his face and I heard the nurse say, “I’m sorry.” I knew what that meant, nothing more needed to be said. We had lost him. He was too fragile to live, and not yet strong enough to thrive.

What was I going to do? I wanted him back, he was mine, my son. Why was he taken? What did he do to deserve this? What did we do? No…better yet, what did I do? These were the questions that continuously haunted me for months. There was only one answer to it all, ‘Trust in me.

I had been a 'real' christian (living the life), since my freshman year in college, October 2003. I confessed Romans 10:9-10 and for sure this time was real. I wanted Jesus Christ in my life, to take control of every part and I was ready to surrender my plan for His will. I had no idea what would all unfold in my life but at that moment of my confession I was telling God that I trusted Him with my life. Whatever may come I was surrendering it all to Him and believing that things couldn’t get too bad. Right?"

End of Excerpt 

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. 

Trust God! 

Eyes on the...WHAT?

Hello Everyone! I pray everyone's day is going well. My family and I have been super busy lately and there has been little time to just sit and do nothing because when I do just sit I tend to fall asleep quickly. In no way am I complaining because the busyness is productive and goals are being met.

I've titled this blog, 'Eyes on the....WHAT?' because we've all heard the saying, 'Keep your eyes on the prize...' well my question to you is what do you have your eyes on? As far as goals that need to be accomplished in your life. Is it a weight/fit goal? School? Professional? Household Checklist? Parenting? Marital goals? What is it that you are trying to accomplish and how do you plan to make it to that goal SUCCESSFULLY?

Vision
Have a vision written out and visible until you meet that goal (Get it...Vision...Visible...should always be seen or within hands reach not just mentally). If your vision is always in front of you, it will be harder to deter from it and loose focus but if you do deter it's still there for you to read and regain focus. Keep your eyes on the vision. Make sure it is a clear vision.

Habakkuk 2:2

2And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.

There has been things in my life that I've started and never finished, well...there have been several things but I made up in my mind that I'm going to defeat that mentality and complete everything I set out to do. For example, last January I decided to stop getting perms and in March I cut my permed hair off because I wanted to do something different and actually stick it out and already a year into it and I'm still going strong. Now don't get me wrong, I had times when I wanted to cave in but I was determined to complete what I had set out to do. I wanted to cut off my permed ends and grow out my hair and I did it! Now there are several other things that I have started and I refuse to not complete them in a reasonable amount of time. I refuse to give up on my goals and so should you. Don't short change yourself, complete what it is you set out to do, don't give up!

Those projects that God has placed inside of you weren't just there just because, they were placed in there because He knew who he created and while you were being formed he knew you had it in you to COMPLETE those projects.

Psalm 139:13-16

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body       and knit me together in my mother’s womb.    14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!       Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.    15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,       as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.    16 You saw me before I was born.       Every day of my life was recorded in your book.    Every moment was laid out       before a single day had passed.

Rebuilding...

It has been a while since I last posted a blog and it has been evident that what God has placed in me to do is being attacked but I WILL COMPLETE everything placed inside!

As you see the title of this blog 'Rebuilding', you may be thinking that it's such a vague title but there is so much within that one word that has been revealed to me lately. My family and I were headed to my childhood church a few Sunday's ago and I was just looking around at all the things that had changed since I was younger and the word, 'Rebuilding' came to mind. The Holy Spirit just began to pour into me about different situations in my life that God used to rebuild me. One of the things I noticed was after something is torn down usually what's left is the foundation and there you can see what held the structure together.  Things are torn down for various reasons that includes foundation shifting, abanded, infestation of some kind, or simply because it's no longer needed. Another reason for something to be torn down is to make way for something newer, more efficient, or up to date.

While being married my husband and I have lost our son, twin girls, miscarriage, apartment fire, unemployment, and more things but I have realized that through all of that God allowed me to learn and grow in my faith. When things happen in your life that seem to just tear you apart and break you down to the lowest of lowest, God will use those things that were meant to DESTROY you and will rebuild you using that very thing. That faith you lost during what happened will be rebuilt and the structure (you) will be stronger once the rebuilding is complete, now the different levels and rooms within the structure is a whole other blog. : )

Have you noticed that when things get to their lowest you really see where your faith is and your heart begins to show. It's in those low points that I see where my heart is and grow from it, the Lord reveals those things to me and he begins to rebuild my faith, my confidence and my life which I seem to think at that time is a disappointment.

I want to challenge you, when you're in your low valleys to not complain, don't get depressed, don't let satan make you think that God has left you but KEEP TRUSTING in God because if you truly believe  His word then you know that, He works it all for the God of those who LOVE HIM....

Romans 8:28 
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. 

Earlier this month I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and I felt so defeated about it. I just couldn't believe that at my age I was dealing with my blood pressure. But I couldn't stay in the valley and groan and be depressed about it, I asked the Holy Spirit, who is my comforter and my teacher, to help me with dealing with this issue.

 Have you ever been to a point in your life where you just wanted to know why? Why this, why that? Why me? Ahhhhh.....just made me want to scream because I felt as though I couldn't catch a break, something always seemed to happen to dampen the day. And do you know what the Lord spoke to me? TeAndra you are victorious! I have plans for you, not to harm you but to prosper you! I am rebuilding you so that you can work in the capacity that you were created to work for. It's time to take care of yourself and begin to walk, in confidence, in the authority that I have given you. I'm your foundation, I built your foundation so let me continue to break down some things in you that aren't beneficial for you, things that can create havoc later on and things that can crack your foundation. Let me be your builder and rebuild you and you'll notice that when it's done you will be a structure that can withstand anything, the winds, the storms, the fires and disappointments and a structure that can hold anything.

I can say that I trust God in everything. Jesus Christ is the Lord of my life and he loves me, he loves you,  God will take care of his children. My husband has this saying, buzzer beater faith, which simply means in the last minute when things seem like they couldn't get any worse, it seems like God steps in and completely turns the situation around to where it's impossible for anyone to take credit but to give FULL credit to God for bringing you out. 

His Schemes...(Don't be distracted!)

So, I haven't been writing lately and there is a reason to that. Satan knows what my family is trying to accomplish and he is trying so hard to take us out. I'm going to share with you all what happened to me last Friday.

I was at home with my girls and my husband was at work. Both girls had fallen asleep so I wanted to take advantage of that and take a shower. Well about a minute after being in the shower I suddenly became super dizzy and disoriented. The room was spinning and I became nauseous. All I wanted to do was make it to the living room where I had left my phone to call someone to help me. I closed my eyes hoping that when I opened them the spinning would have stopped and all would be normal again but to my surprise I opened them and the room continued to spin and I was more nauseous. I stumbled out of the shower trying to feel my way around so make it to the living room. I had closed my eyes again because the spinning was causing me to fall into everything. I just felt this enormous weight on me and it was pushing me down so heavily. I eventually made it to my phone that was on the couch and called my husband to come and help me. I could barely talk. My words wouldn't come out right and I had noticed that my right arm was hurting really bad and to make things worse the migraine I had been battling with since the Wednesday before had returned. I felt so outside of myself. What was going on?

My husband finally made it home and by that time the dizziness had ceased but I still had a headache and  my arm was hurting. All I could say during this whole ordeal was, 'Jesus, Jesus, help me!' I had never experienced anything like that. I've been through a lot physically in my life but NOTHING compared to what was going on with my body during this time. After my husband came home he asked if I was okay and proceeded to pray for me. While he was praying the Holy Spirit spoke to me and told me that this was just a distraction. Satan is trying to literally stop me from completing my book. Satan is trying to kill me. After talking with some nurses and reading I've come to realize that I probably had a mini-stroke. My husband was saying that throughout the week he had noticed that my speech was slurred and that I was having a hard time getting out my words but chalked it up as me just being tired. A MINI-STROKE! WHAT? ARE YOU SERIOUS?

I am just a few months away from being 27, I'm not the smallest woman but not the biggest either, I consider myself being a little active so realizing that I probably had a mini-stroke blew me away. You see I've had a stillbirth at 6 months, twin girls delivered prematurely at 5 months and a miscarriage and Satan couldn't get me to turn my back on God, in fact those trials only made me stronger and has created a testimony in me, so guess what Satan is doing now? Trying to destroy me physically, trying to take me out so that I will not complete these books that the Lord has placed in me. But guess what, I'm not new to his game. I know his schemes. In 2 Corinthians 2 it talks about not being outwitted to Satan's schemes and his design. We know Satan comes to steal, kill and destroy (John 10:10) but I know the one who gives life!

1 Peter 5:8-11
Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You're not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It's the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won't last forever. It won't be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, he does. 




We served notice to Satan that he can just leave our bodies alone and that he will NOT take us OUT! MY GOD HAS THE FINAL SAY AND I HAVE LIFE!!!! I HAVE HEALING!!! I AM WHOLE AND WILL COMPLETE THE ASSIGNMENT GIVEN!


I am going to post a website of the message I was at on Sunday that just shifted my perspective on communion and the power of the blood. I am covered and I will complete my assignment. The lamb's blood is on my body, it's over the door post of my mind and when death and sickness comes to take me out it will see the BLOOD!! The next day, after death had taken out the first born in Egypt the hebrews left  from where they were and were freed from their bondage. I am free today, are you? Tell Satan to keep it moving and then pack up your stuff and run, run, run fast with the vision God has placed in your life and remember to stay sober in mind because Satan is always trying to run up on us and take us out anyway he can, mentally, physically and spiritually. 


****I am now exercising and eating better so that I can fulfill this assignment to the best of my ability. I will live and NOT die!!!*****


God Bless!


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A Father's Love

Good Morning,
I woke up this morning and knew that I needed to share something that I was dealing with the other day. I was watching something on t.v and it was a father telling his daughter that he loved her, cherished her and that she was his only daughter so he wanted to make sure he spend some personal time with her to let her know that she was important. I just begin to tear up and eventually cry. Where were these tears coming from? This emotion was one I don't think I have ever really felt until now.

I am 26 years old and my biological father has never truly been present in my life, just in and out when I was younger but nothing really true, nothing really genuine. My step-dad was in my life from about 7 until a few years ago when my parents separated and our relationship kind of fizzled a little and in that our relationship had been a little rocky due to things from when I was a teen but with all that being said I realized that I truly desire to have my earthly father tell me these same words. These emotions that were stirred up within me were so unfamiliar I didn't even know what to do with them. A father's love is so essential, even if we don't think it does. I just knew that I didn't need that love and that I was just fine without a father...RIGHT?? He was the one missing out...Right? Quickly I found myself missing them and wishing I had a better relationship with them. Oh, to only hear those words spoken to me as an only daughter would be to me like water in the desert.

I look at my two daughters and I am so grateful that they have that. Their father loves them more than he can even express and I know they are jewels to him. In fact my husband tells my daughters all the time how beautiful they are, how precious they are and how much he loves them so much that our oldest expects to hear it every time her hair gets done. She automatically walks over to him and looks at him waiting to hear those words of love as if mommy's words weren't good enough.

Just sitting here now I can't help but to think of the love of my father in heaven, God. After the incident of me crying and desiring to hear those words, he spoke them to me. Letting me know that I was precious, loved and valuable. God loves me that much to see that I was having a hard time with the realization that I didn't have that, and whispered it to me letting me know that his love surpasses all.

Fathers I urge you to make sure you tell your daughters how beautiful, precious,  and loved they are by you. Believe me, it means a lot. I am older and still need to hear those words and although I don't have my earthly fathers telling me this, I have my heavenly father who loves me unconditionally. A father who doesn't leave me, who never changes, who doesn't move around everywhere, who constantly checks up on me and is ever near.

1 Corinthians 13:1-10


   ¹ If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. ²If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. ^{3 -7}If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

   Love never gives up.
   Love cares more for others than for self.
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
   Love doesn't strut,
   Doesn't have a swelled head,
   Doesn't force itself on others,
   Isn't always "me first,"
   Doesn't fly off the handle,
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
   Doesn't revel when others grovel,
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
   Puts up with anything,
   Trusts God always,
   Always looks for the best,
   Never looks back,
   But keeps going to the end.
   ^{8 -10}Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit.