Below will just be a short excerpt from my book that will be out this summer titled, 'A Mothers Heart: The Heart of the Matter.' It will be exactly 4 years, May 20th, from when we lost our son, our first born. The journey started that day in the cloudy skies of Salt Lake City, Utah and to this day the mending continues.
Chapter 1: The Day
..."The
room was bright and the surgery lights were lit. There were several
nurses in the room awaiting the arrival of a premature baby. I just
wanted to hear a whimper, something…anything, but I got nothing. My
husband looked at me and all I saw were the tears streaming down his
face and I heard the nurse say, “I’m sorry.” I knew what that
meant, nothing more needed to be said. We had lost him. He was too
fragile to live, and not
yet strong enough to thrive.
What
was I going to do? I wanted him back, he was mine, my son. Why was he
taken? What did he do to deserve this? What did we do? No…better
yet, what did I do? These were the questions that continuously
haunted me for months. There was only one answer to it all, ‘Trust
in me.
I
had been a 'real' christian (living the life), since my freshman year in college,
October 2003. I confessed Romans 10:9-10 and for sure this time was
real. I wanted Jesus Christ in my life, to take control of every part
and I was ready to surrender my plan for His will. I had no idea what
would all unfold in my life but at that moment of my confession I was
telling God that I trusted Him with my life. Whatever may come I was
surrendering it all to Him and believing that things couldn’t get
too bad. Right?"
End of Excerpt
Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Trust God!
